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One of These Things First

A Memoir

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From New York Times–bestselling author Steven Gaines comes a wry and touching memoir of his trials as a gay teen at the famed Payne Whitney Psychiatric Clinic.
One of These Things First is a poignant reminiscence of a fifteen-year-old gay Jewish boy’s unexpected trajectory from a life behind a rack of dresses in his grandmother’s Brooklyn bra-and-girdle store to Manhattan’s infamous Payne Whitney Psychiatric Clinic, whose alumni includes writers, poets, and madmen, as well as Marilyn Monroe and bestselling author Steven Gaines.
With a gimlet eye and a true gift for storytelling, Gaines captures his childhood shtetl in Brooklyn, and all its drama and secrets, like an Edward Hopper tableau: his philandering grandfather with his fleet of Cadillacs and Corvettes; a giant, empty movie theater, his portal to the outside world; a shirtless teenage boy pushing a lawnmower; and a pair of tormenting bullies whose taunts drive Gaines to a suicide attempt.
Gaines also takes the reader behind the walls of Payne Whitney—the “Harvard of psychiatric clinics,” as Time magazine called it—populated by a captivating group of neurasthenics who affect his life in unexpected ways. The cast of characters includes a famous Broadway producer who becomes his unlikely mentor; an elegant woman who claims to be the ex-mistress of newly elected president John F. Kennedy; a snooty, suicidal architect; and a seductive young contessa. At the center of the story is a brilliant young psychiatrist who promises to cure a young boy of his homosexuality and give him the normalcy he so longs for.
For readers who love stories of self-transformation, One of These Things First is a fascinating memoir in the vain of Susanna Kaysen’s Girl, Interrupted and Augusten Burroughs’s Running with Scissors. With its novelistic texture and unflagging narrative, this book is destined to become one of the great, indelible works of the memoir genre.
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    • Publisher's Weekly

      June 27, 2016
      Gaines (Philistines at the Hedgerow) looks back at the central issue of his Jewish childhood in Brooklyn, and the unnerving disorder of feeling different, as he works in his grandmother’s ladies’ clothing store. The author, who was 15 in the early 1960s, places readers right in his Borough Park neighborhood. The family thinks he’s going crazy, possibly due to his unmasculine work, while he tries to explain the sexual chaos in his head. His father takes the youth to a doctor who suggests treatment in a mental hospital, landing Gaines at exclusive Payne Whitney. At the hospital, his doctor approaches his case in the conventional manner to cure his homosexuality, while Gaines witnesses the priceless and zany antics of a supporting cast of oddballs—neighbors and fellow patients—worthy of a Marx Brothers madcap romp. By turns comic, honest, and riveting, Gaines tells a story of a well-meaning shrink and his troubled young charge locked in a war of wills to ease “the trauma of homosexuality” and restore his humanity in a conservative world.

    • Library Journal

      March 1, 2016

      A journalist, public radio show host, and New York Times best-selling author, Gaines (Philistines at the Hedgerow) turns his observational talents on himself in a memoir that begins in March 1962 with a near-successful suicide attempt. He persuaded his grandfather to support a stay at the exclusive Payne Whitney Psychiatric Clinic on Manhattan's Upper East Side, where he acknowledged his homosexuality, attempted a conversion cure, and met a lot of celebrities. With a 40,000-copy first printing.

      Copyright 2016 Library Journal, LLC Used with permission.

    • Kirkus

      June 15, 2016
      The story of the author's experiences of transformation in a famed mental hospital.In the early 1960s, after a failed suicide attempt, Gaines (Fool's Paradise: Players, Poseurs, and the Culture of Excess in South Beach, 2009, etc.), at 15, became a patient at the Payne Whitney in Manhattan, where Marilyn Monroe, Carson McCullers, William S. Burroughs, Robert Lowell, and other notables had been treated. In a candid, entertaining memoir, the author chronicles growing up gay and confused in Borough Park, "the cognac of Brooklyn, the potent and flavorful essence"; dealing with his father's rage, teenage crushes, and strange compulsions; and landing at the storied hospital where fellow patients included producer Richard Halliday, husband of actress Mary Martin; a raunchy, eccentric contessa; and a woman who claimed to be John F. Kennedy's spurned mistress. Gaines was put under the care of a psychiatrist to whom he finally confided the cause of his distress: "I THINK I AM A HOMOSEXUAL," he wrote in a sealed note. "Homosexuality can be cured, like many other disorders," his doctor told him, news that buoyed Gaines' spirits. "I would jump through hoops of fire," he thought, "if I could be normal." Although the path to heterosexuality eluded him at Payne Whitney and through 12 years of Freudian therapy, Gaines changed radically. Under the mentorship of the moody Halliday, who imparted Broadway gossip; the spurned mistress, who prescribed for him new clothes from Brooks Brothers and a spiffy hairstyle; and Martin's suggested reading list (including To Kill a Mockingbird and Breakfast at Tiffany's, Gaines left behind his provincial Brooklyn roots. "I felt like Eliza Doolittle at the psycho country club," he writes. "Maybe it was a ship of crazies, but I had embarked on a voyage where almost anything was possible." In this short memoir, the author vividly portrays the crazies both within and outside of the mental hospital. A spirited narrative of a hard-won coming-of-age.

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